i don't mean to suggest that i loved you the best,
i don't keep track of each fallen robin.
i remember you well in the Chelsea Hotel,
that's all, i don't even think of you that often.

lc

You know you want it.

faaabulous! i was so very impressed with mine host (neil) and all his helpers - the party was just spectacliar. turns out that i wasn't guilty, although it emerged that i was having torrid affair behind the back of my husband with a quite lovely american man who had an enormous hat. and you know what they say...

i made the slight mistake of not remembering to bring anything, erm, male, to change into, and then having borrowed a pair of trousers, went and left my mobile phone in them. it's a wrench being mobile-less you know! i'm pining for it as we speak, but neil is a nice man and is going to send it to me in a jiffy.

judging by the number of cameras around it can onlybe a matter of time before certain images find their way into electronic distribution. you lucky, lucky people.

this weekend i am off to a murder mystery party, in full costume as Edith le Grand Butte, the wife of the deputy mayor of casablanca. so i have the dress (lots of gold and green), and a shawl and coat, and stockings and shoes and some long velvet gloves and a couple of beautiful pieces of jewellery - thanks to the lovely laura for most of those! But I need a wig and makeup, and that's proving difficult because your average wig shop seems to have very restrictive opening hours.

i only do drag on average once a year, and it's usually at the lesbian and gay switchboard ceilidh here in Edinburgh. and for some reason i can only be convincing as an older woman. ho hum.

okay, i'm starting to get a bit sick of the "unprecendented act of terrorism" and the "attack on freedom itself" news angles. the US killed 50,000 people in Nicaragua in acts of terrorism. they killed tens of thousands in the Sudan in a single act of terrorism (of bombing a factory, which they later apologised for because it wasn't manufacturing chemical weapons after all, but essential vaccines). they are not the defender of the world's freedoms, they are the defender of america's interests. they are without doubt justified in their grief and their anger and, possibly, even their military flexing; but i wish they would stop pretending that they were doing it on behalf of the rest of the "civilised" (hmm, do we mean white capitalist?) world.

anyway, it's good to see that they are making up for their late entry into the last world war by being right on time for this one...

and back to the main drag, in the middle of catching up on the approximately 900 emails that were waiting for me (well, maybe about 400 weren't spam...) i come across a domain-name to die for, and well worth a look for a spot of shopping: www.jesuschristsuperstore.net. oh yes.

in unrelated news, i have been without email for more than a week now due to a problem with our servers, so in case anyone was wondering why i haven't responded to something, it's because i ain't got it yet! i hope to find the miracle cure today (since i am now back at work, boo).

i'm pleased to say that everyone got out of the FT Knowledge office safely. although they are now completely screwed business-wise, they are all alive. of course on the the-world-is-about-to-end-24-hour-newsathon we are now getting the individual, personal stories that start to move us away from the glamour of the plane shots to the terror of the individual. it's strangely gripping stuff.

well shit. yesterday was quite a day. it still feels like watching a film when you see the video of the planes flying into the towers, and the collapses look like a big special effect from Independence Day. it's somehow possible to watch without feeling much emotion at all. which is wierd.

then i remember that the address of our american colleagues at FT Knowledge/NYIF, who deal with student enquiries for the MBA courses we produce, is Two World Trade Center, 17th Floor. and i don't know ...

you can contribute to a disaster relief fund here.

i'm off to inverness for the weekend! to keep you going, here's the latest film news from entertainment today:

U.S. WORLD CUP SQUAD ARRIVE IN MUNICH TO TAKE FULL CREDIT FOR SATURDAY'S VICTORY

Hollywood to make film of Munich Victory

Universal Pictures announced today they plan to make a film of the momentous football match that took place on Saturday. "Five-One" is the tentative title of what could be next year's big summer hit, depicting the American national soccer team's stunning victory over Germany.

Nicolas Cage heads an all-star cast as the captain of the brave US Soccer team haunted by the trauma of losing in the 2000 World Cup final on penalties and the death of his wife in a riot caused by English football hooligans, and finds love in the arms of a female sports journalist played by Julia Roberts. Mel Gibson is the no-nonsense Swedish coach who leads them to glory, with Keanu Reeves, Ben Affleck, Matt Damon and Will Smith playing some of Cage's heroic team mates.

Jeremy Irons is set to star as Sir Nigel Villiers-Smythe, the dastardly Englishman who coaches the German team and forces them to play with poisoned-tipped studs to try and cheat the heroic American team out of victory.

Director Steven Spielberg defended the film-makers' decision to focus on the American contribution to the victory over Germany and inaccurate and even imagined events in the story, saying, "Obviously we've had to take some artistic licence to make the story work on film, but I hope that what we produce will be true to the spirit of what happened on that famous night."

alongside the fact that janet and michael jackson are the same person, and in australia burgers eat people, it's also common knowledge that the US moon landings in the late 60s and early 70s were faked. for proof, if proof be need be, look here.

i'd like to share with you a letter i received from the hospital yesterday. this is an exact quotation:

Unfortunately it is necessary to cancel your outpatient appointment because of clinic rescheduling. I very much regret any inconvenience this may cause. Please find below details of your new appointment.

Cancelled appointment:
Clinic date: 29/11/2001
Clinic time: 14:10
Clinic name: THURSDAY.PM

New appointment:
Clinic date: 29/11/2001
Clinic time: 14:15
Clinic name: THURSDAY.PM

Should you be anxious or wish further information, please telephone the Appointments Office at the above extension number.

that's my schedule completely ruined...